I want to thank all of you for your wonderful comments - the tales of hope and words of support have really kept me going. I've been re-reading the comments whenever I'm feeling particularly low, and they have really helped to give me a boost. I haven't seen Issey since last Thursday afternoon when we left for San Diego, but we're not really sure when she disappeared since we weren't back until Saturday afternoon. Regardless, she's been missing far too long for my tastes. Jerry is optimistic that she may have found another home and is happy and well fed there. While this is definitely better than the scenarios of injury or worse, it's just not good enough for me. Call me selfish and self-absorbed if you will, but I want her back home with us! And, I don't think I'm the only one feeling that way... our other cat, Divali, has been totally mopey since we got back. I know that she misses her snuggle buddy and partner in sofa warming... she's never been an only cat before.
To top it all off, I came down with yet another cold last night, because apparently, physical suffering has to accompany the emotional suffering. Now, I hope I'm not sounding like some freakish drama queen... I have a wonderful husband, delightful daughter, beautiful home, and plenty of food, entertainment, and silly things that smack of consumerism. I'm not in a bad place at all - I'm just feeling pretty low at the moment. I'm still hoping against hope that she's ok and she'll just walk right back into the house any minute now. My ears are tuned to listen for her little voice announcing her return.
On the positive side, Jerry and I laid in bed last night remembering all the fun and silliness we've had with Issey. You see, she was our first "baby" - we each brought a cat into the marriage, but Issey was truly ours. We picked her out at the shelter before she was old enough to be adopted, and we waited anxiously for her to gain weight and clear all of her health checks so that we could bring her home. We like to think that we are somewhat responsible for her overall good nature, but in reality she was probably just born that way - our perfect cat.